like i used to

love....i failed.but still,i managed to smile.i only 19.theres a lot things out there that need to be explored.so i guess this is only the beginning.i started my precious teenage time that was when i
only 18 with someone who i really love,care and wanted so much.but i let him down after we've been through a very complicated time for few months before we decided to drive our own way.i think i am the one who always initiate the anger,argue between us.because it was just seem not enough for me.haha.i dont know.its realy bothering when u are with someone who you wanted so much but at the same time you wanna freedom.but then i met this very kind,nice guy.his patience limit is outsanding.he is the only guy who able to keep it cool when everytime i start to do something that is not exactly....correct.means i did something wrong lah.but then,after 2 months,he cant.haha.my mistakes.again.i learnt so much from my past momory with him.i thought i was strong.but sometimes,i do recall about him...i think i miss him.haha!

love is dramatic

he finally found its hard for both of us.he said,we are now in our own way.i messed up last time.this time i did it again.i dont deserve love.because i dont know how to appreciate it.
thanks,for being such a great lover.its realy a waste to lose a nice guy like u.but i'm fine.i still have my family n friends.they always be there for me.stand right by my side.like u used to do before.
-THE END-

when u start comparing....

when u start comparing ur loved one with someone else....
damn.why is it so hard for a girl to let go someone in an easy way?obviously u dont even need that someone.
i swear to love u all alone.but this feeling keep on coming to me.and me...i keep on trying to avoid from being affected by it.maybe i should start to love someone who really love me.
try harder.forget him.trust the loved one.